It's a come back !

I was mentally feeling full for a long time after my previous blog post ! Too many things, good things had happened ! Let me list them all for you :)

As soon as I quit that painful and boring job, I immediately got consulting assignments and I started as a freelance consultant. Half way through the first assignment, came the second one and currently I'm on the third with one more in cards :) That is quite something. People don't get to become a consultant when he/she is a fresher but all my assignments were great experiences! Each one with major learning, met new people, some very influential people and also some concepts that can never be learnt through textbooks !

Now to the best part and the most sudden and pleasant surprise of all ! A PhD Offer from Nanyang Business School, Singapore ! The experience of applying there itself was unique, as it was in reverse move. I was interviewed, found to be good, was made an oral offer and then only I applied and sent the documents ! Now that it is almost finalized, I am so excited ! PhD before 30 has been my dream ! Whatever consulting assignments or job I was at, my mind would silently wander in some laboratory setting, thinking where I would apply, what would be my research area, what I would do during the process and so many things. Now that it is all clear :) Now all that I should do is sit back, gear up to 5 and shoot myself into the sky for a thrill ! Research is my tonic to feel better, even if there are hardships, they all give me high :)

I suppose I could blog regularly about my varied experiences in a new place, a new country and a new lab soon :D

Only time will tell

Blogging after months, but boy does it feel so good !!

I start by ranting. I wanted to do so so many things in 2011 but God dint carve me out for more than half of it. Its already October and I am still not settled after my masters. Oh yeah, that is one thing I am happy about. Ok, let me tell you all the good things that happened for the start of 2011.

Though I keep complaining about 2011, it is the year that changed my life. On the personal front, I had a major happy incident that changed my life altogether. I entered into a relationship with my best friend for 6 years, Bachu ! My soul mate and now everything :) That is a weird little story. No impulsive 'I Love Yous', no winking, no blushing or no cheesy lines. It was a rational discussion, if I may quote. We spoke and realised that 'there are noone more suited for us than us' and also we have been in a relationship for a long time but never realised it. I guess that is what happens when two best friends who know everything about each other get into a relationship. Everything is going on so so beautifully well now :)

I completed masters (by research) and earned the degree in August. It has been an amazing journey of ups and downs but what finally remains are the fantastic lab memories, lovable friends I made through the process an of course the knowledge gained. I loved my days at IIT and think back about it at many times.

Now the low part ! I have a serious problem. I am not cut out for office work. I realised it just 2 weeks into a job. I always have this serious urge to do something creative everyday, something lively that gives me a high. I am not the type who can sit in front of computer all day and do numbers, presentations. I want to be a continuous learner, a creator, a interactive human being and an innovator. All this is not achievable at the job. So I have decided to take up a job that involves half of it and do something exciting at the side. My fascination for marketing and advertisements has motivated me to look at that direction. I am planning to learn about the Ad industry with the help of a dear friend which will satisfy my inner thirst and also do a job for a living and for future PhD application costs (that will be steep). That is the plan but seriously no idea how this will progress. Now that I have started blogging again, I will be back to tell you more :)

TTFN :)

Love !

Lone times have gone from my memories forever,
On my heart have you written, my lover.
Vastness of light has filled my room,
Emptying the sun you have lit it,my groom.

Living the moments we spent under the moon,
Overwhelmed with joy, God granted us a boon.
Veins are filled with your name of blood,
Eternity isn't far where affection is flood.

Long are our dreams these nights of chill,
One has become our hearts giving thrill.
Valentine, Oh you're the magic of my life,
End of days and beyond, I am your wife.




Cheesy but genuine attempt to show my love for you, Bachu. Lines of each para start with letters LOVE :) Love you my sweetheart !

Purposive sampling of thoughts

For people who do not understand the title, it just means filtering and picking those thoughts that are clustered around a particular topic. But fortunately, I am not going to talk about any particular topic .I am going to write about how wonderful our mind is and how it is the best organizer in the world. It does and can do beyond what we think of as its ability.

I am very astonished by certain things that happen at times. Many of us would have driven a two-wheeler or car. But soemtimes I have strange thoughts while driving. Not just thought, but like a film flashing in my mind either about something that has happened or something that has never happened or that I have not seen. These scenes occur sequentially before my mind's eye but nothing happens to my motor skills or my vision or my hearing which are all coordinated well with the road. The entire sequence happens slowly one by one but actually I clearly remember that when it all began in my mind I was passing a tree and by the time it ended I had just passed the tree. How is it possible? Is it based on the fact that is shown in the movie Inception (a unit of time in the dream is lesser than in reality and so what happens during a dream is very slow or seems like it). So am I dreaming in the day, with eyes open and while driving steady? I do not know if it has happened to anyone else or whether people remember it even if they had experienced it but I have had this a number of times. You would not believe if I say that I have dreams about a particular sequence of life but no idea of what is happening or where but after a few days I have a deja vu of the same setting and sequence in real and I realise for a split second that I have been through this before. That feeling does not last longer but is very memorable. I feel strange now. Do these things happen to everyone? Or do others not observe it very closely?

Our mind, some people say, is capable of lifting or moving objects, running many thoughts parallelly and even make ourself so light like a leaf that others can lift us with a finger. I do not know about the first two but I can definitely say the third one works. I have lifted someone as heavy as me with just 2 fingers. The person to be lifted goes into beta state and rests the mind completely and I really do not know how, but the body becomes a leaf. I guess that is why we dont feel our weight in sleep and often end up with cramps in shoulder and neck in the morning due to putting all our weight on that body part all night (afterall, if we knew or felt the weight in our sleep, we would have changed position right?).

I am still amazed by the mind. I wish I do research in psycho-physiology and philosophy. God, I am so thankful to you and I am dumbstruck by your amazing creation. I bet, no science of today can do what you did millions of years ago.

New year, New life and things to do !

Its that time of year when thoughts about resolutions are talked at every dinner table in a restaurant. I am going to write about my resolution too. I am going to resolve that in 2011, I would a do a good deed everyday - be it small or big, but it should be good not just for me but for at least one another human being. It sounds easy, but you know its really difficult to please others. That is where its tricky for me. But I have made a box called "My lil' good box" where I'd write everyday's good deed in a piece of paper and preserve. Hope it works. Fingers crossed !

Next thing that pops into my head is how 2011 is going to change my life. I am expecting big changes that would alter my life totally. A good job, a PhD, a new chapter of life. Busy life could even make me stop blogging, but I've trained myself to be a strong multi-tasker. I have a lot of dreams and aspirations. I want to follow my dreams and achieve my goals. I wanna keep learning all my life, do new courses always that will teach me more and more so that I have enough life experiments to do every day, all life. Philosophy is ultimate truth that can never be achieved but I would like to go as near to it as possible to feel content.

Some of the things I wanna do, not necessarily in 2011 are:
I want to make an upto-intricate detailed business plan for my entrepreneurial initiative that I have aimed for the year 2020. Oh come on, its not far, just a decade close :) I want to learn different styles of music, experiment voice culturing, voice synthesis and modulations. I want to learn Kalamkari painting, pottery and weaving arts. I want to be a freelance travel-writer (if possible try to make it my profession) because simply put, I'm mad of travelling (though not done it much) and i love writing. I want to learn pastry making and bake every possible thing on earth. I want to perfect the languages I know, get to speak fluently in French, German and Korean so that it would help in travel-writing. I want to build my own home in a quasi indian-french architecture and learn landscaping to make a beautiful garden and roof lawn with oonjal for my mom.

OMG ! How am I gonna do all this? I know I will but don't know when ! hope it all happens soon enough :)

Happy new year :) :)

எதிர்பார்ப்பு

தமிழில் வரும் உருவம் மனம் கவரும் நிழல் உருகும்
மலரில் விழும் மகரம் ப்ரிய நினைவில் பூப்படையும்.
தவழும் சிறு கரமும் வளை உடுத்தால் சிறை விடுக்கும்
வளையும் தனி மனமும் சிலை வடிவம் தனை அணுகும்.

நெருடும் சுவை மொழியும் தடுமாறும் புது வழியும்
நிலையம் அதை மறக்கும் மதி உதயம் கண்டு பிறக்கும்.
சுவையும் அதன் சுயமும் நினைப்பதனால் வரும் மயக்கம்
இடையில் அசை உடையால் இருளாகும் உயர் இமயம்.

கிரகம் கொடுவரத்தால் அல்ல வலையின் சில செயத்தால்
நிலையில் ஒரு நெறியில் நகைபோலே பொன் மனத்தால்
கவி உயிராய் வரு கருவாய் உயர் மதியாய் இருந்தாலும்
நிறையாய் வந்த நரனாய் சக ஸ்ருதியாய் இருத்தல் போதும்.

Sweet little things

Innumerable coincidences prove to us that there are things that Nature/God wants us to thoroughly enjoy and relish.

A colleague bringing you hot chocolate or hot latte to your desk while you work, who does not know you have a cold and would love to drink a good hot beverage. You bless that soul and enjoy every sip of that hot drink. Amazing time !

Mommy giving a nice cozy massage on the neck when you stretch your limbs. Daddy calling you while you are travelling back home after a tiring day, just to tell you that he bought 'molaga bajji' for you. What beautiful moments of tiny joy !

On one of those slow days at work, your brother calls from a distant land to say he is coming back home for a holiday or your friend is calling to inform you about her recently fixed up wedding. Sudden spring of happiness that keeps you cheerful the whole day.

Some random uncle or aunty smiling at you in the train while you are upset about fighting with your parents just few minutes back, for some stupid reason. You immediately wanna say sorry to them.

The pride of giving your seat in the bus to a challenged or elderly person, when all others are just looking at various directions, is enough to keep you high the whole day. Buying an ID card holder from a blind salesman and keeping photos of loved ones in it, just for the sake of using it, will give you that day's positive energy.

Waiting in the doctor's clinic for your turn, meanwhile talking with concern to the old grandma in the next seat asking her not to worry about her diabetes test, when you leave she gives the smile of relief. It feels so good and makes you forget why you are visiting the doctor.

All these things have happened in my life. I wish everyone experiences it and enjoys those sweet little things :)